Hmmm.... It's 4:53 AM, anytime now my dad is going to get out of his room and will still see me using the computer; I'm anticipating that he will again give me a slight lecture on why I stay up too late on the net and like all the other days when he does this, I usually just try to make it pass through my other ear. I'm such a disobedient daughter but even though I know my dad still loves me! =)
While I was browsing through the facebook profile of one of my favorite writer/producer, Pat Evangelista, I saw her post a status message that spark an interest in me. They're opening for internship for the 5th season of Storyline. Hmmmm.... interesting (flash bulb on!) According to Pat, they're not really going to check if your academically excellent, they want someone with passion. Good thing she's still accepting applicants, I'm about to send in my application now, so wish me luck!
I'm back in school, after not being in school for ummm almost 6 weeks? I didn't miss the place but I do miss some cool people like my dean and those who hang out at the registrar's office. They all want me back in school, I never get to miss a login in facebook that I don't get a chat or an offline message from them. This semester looks bright, only two subjects, Photography and Mass communication II, all late afternoon subjects. I decided not to take advance subjects this semester, never again to subjects where I'm the sole student. The best part of going back to school to fix my schedule this coming semester? Hearing about how Sunstar's Mayette Tabada liked my blog! I was so psyched upon hearing this news cause I remember how my old STC Classmates would shiver in terror upon submitting a report, thesis and whatnot for her class - in short she was a terror slash perfectionist slash hard to please kind of professor. I wish I would have a chance to be under her, to experience such taunting (god I'm such a masochist) but not as excited as if I'll get a chance to meet my favorite local writer Melanie T. Lim of Sunstar.
School miscellaneous fees are more expensive than my subject fees. rawr. oh oh and my brother had his first driving lessons today. As of the moment, we chatting about how scared he was driving on the highway. My dad is giving him the car, something he deserves for being a better sibling but according to him he isn't good, he's just passive. haha I didn't know he knew what passive meant. lol. I think my brother is a genius, really good in analytical stuff only he's got really short attention span so he can't go through all the classroom hours.
I have to go, I'm meeting Yenyen by 8 and it's past 8 already. bohooo. Bacon Deli here I come!!! Yum Yum Yum
Edited new set of pictures, profile pictures of friends that I find interesting. School starts tomorrow. Phbt. Went online for almost 9 hours. I am such an addict. I should go to rehab or something. I was pissed at someone today, she just knows how to get into my nerves. Lately, I have been really patient with issues trying to be the better person by choosing to keep quiet and not to defend myself aggressively like I used to but sometimes I feel like my silence has been taken advantaged. Strike three and thats it for this lady! Good thing my friend Di was there to make me feel better. I had to say the F word 5 times over our short text exchange.
To kick away bad vibes, I listened to ear bursting trance/house/electronic music, I felt like dancing and getting high from dancing laser lights. I love watching laser lights whenever I'm in a club, puts me in a trance.
Discovered this really nice song from ral's sister rizza - signature lies. I love love love the lyrics! Check out Riz's youtube channel here.
You put me through hell While I was under your spell But I still beg to differ You made me believe that Everything we had Would have a Life time guarantee With your signature lies Every night my soul dies Just a little Just a little But I put up with all your shit, All of it, All that you put me through Just to be with you Just to be with you
P.S. Complete album of my recent edits (if your interested to watch) can be found here
Original photos from Rhea Tiu. I just found out today that Lezzy (Rhea) and I aren't friends yet in facebook. Bohoo. I miss her soo much, together with the other lesbiana of TCO batch 08. When they left, I decided to leave STC as well. I think the second batch is much much better. watchathink? hmmmm.
I bailed for bern's send off party. I'm soo sorry me!!! =( My lower back hurts really bad and I feel so restless and lazy. (as if it's a new thing haha). While waiting for my turn to use the PC, I did some stretching and Pilates. I feel much better now even if I haven't taken a pain killer pill since this morning.
I'm quite addicted to the new season of Pinoy Big Brother. I got all teary-eyed when the Filipino housemate in Finland had to say goodbye to the Finis housemates. Sucker punch me. Oh, oh out of boredom, I am now addicted to friends for sale. This application in facebook where you get to buy and sell your friends. It is weird but it feels good that I own *toot*, I bought him off from his bunny. lmao. You wouldn't know what I'm talking about unless if your my personal friend.
OK that's it. 6am. I'm off to do some other things on the net. xoxo
So, I was bored and decided to download and install photoshop in the new computer. Searched for David Hill Techniques and tried it myself. So far so good. Watchathink? If you want the link to the tutorial just click HERE. I've seen and tried some of the trials, the one I linked is the easiest and has a better final outcome. Just make sure you get a picture that has good resolution and lighting. Oh oh and if you guys don't know who Dave Hill is, click here. Thanks by the way to Bofel for paving the way for me to search for the David Hill technique. lol. These are a few pictures that I did over the span of an hour and a half, I'm too tired now and my back still aches. I'm popping a pill to kill this lower back pain!
I thought I was hallucinating about 45 minutes ago when I felt that the ground was shaking, good thing other online facebook friends confirmed that there was indeed an earthquake. Whew!
I'm attending this surprise send off party for a kindergarden friend later, guess I would be home early today. I miss chloe (chloe is my bed), it's gonna be a good night sleep for me again.
Oh and I have to go back to school on monday, sembreak is oooovvvvvveeeerrrrr. My school professors loves me, only if I can tell how much string they pulled just so I can still pass the last semester. hahahhahaa
p.s.Tonight (Nov 6, FRIDAY), it's acoustic virtuoso Carl Ferrer live onstage. Feel free to sing along with him. He provides the music while you provide the lyrics!
Wake up look me in the eyes again I need to feel your hand upon my face Words can relay nice They can cut you open And the silence surrounds you and hunts you I think I might’ve inhale you I could feel you behind my eyes You gotten into my bloodstream I could feel you floating in me Words can relay nice They can cut you open And the silence surrounds you and hunts you I think I might’ve inhale you I could feel you behind my eyes You gotten into my bloodstream I could feel you floating in me
The spaces in between Two minds and all the places they have been The spaces in between I tried to put my finger on it I tried to put my finger on it I think I might’ve inhale you I could feel you behind my eyes You gotten into my bloodstream I could feel you floating in me I think I might’ve inhale you I could feel you behind my eyes You gotten into my bloodstream I could feel you floating in me
I feel like my head is going to burst from all the tug of war thoughts that come in and out of my head. I listen to my friends, for a minute or two, I follow what they think is best for me and then you come, you flash that smile and for a second, I forget everything else that I told myself I should do.
What is this feeling? take it away. Then I take my words back because when you are in that feeling, it's something that you just want to stay in for as long as it would last.. ohoh I have been nothing but a disappointment to myself. Now, I understand better the deeper meaning of taking one step forward yet it feels like taking two steps backward. Damn!
Then you try to take that step sideways and it pulls you back again like your all steel and he's magneto.
But what scares me even more? Is the more that I am with you, the more that I feel like I am no longer myself. That self that I've build years just so that no one like you could make me feel this way.
Disclaimer: This isn't an emo note, I'm not heartbroken or anything. I'm just listening to a song and got inspired to write this note. Although this one is close to the heart haha
I guess i am in constant denial that I don't need love - the romantic kind of love. Then one night, I found myself praying, how I wish God would give me that someone to make me feel the way that lovers feel during courtship... during their first month together... their first Christmas or holiday... the first fight... the first make up after a very short break up... the first kiss... the first time you wake up with your whole body wrapped around that person's arms... The first time you tell each other how happy your are that your together and how you would try to make it through every struggle...and all that..
Bittersweet cause it seems like it never ever comes, while others change from one relationship to another.. Maybe cause I might be looking for the wrong reason, at the wrong time, wrong place or I maybe looking at the wrong person. If I'm looking for love, I know I wouldn't find it in someone who already loves another.
So I guess that made me realize that I can be on the right track now Although it feels like my body has been crippled by this unknown feeling some call it hope, expectation, hunch and some may even call it faith. I call it momentarily happiness, an afternoon delight - the bliss drug The kind of drug that keeps you soaring high and crushes your heart until you cant breath, your mind blows and you literally grow paranoia describing how you can feel butterflies in your stomach and hearing your heart break.
It's dangerous You are dangerous and contagious I am lost and wished that it was true - when you called me heartless. Then I wouldn't be writing this note with you in mind.
disclaimer:Inspired by Heartless - The Fray cover. =) This is fictional, an illusion
I know you've tried writing something down in a piece of paper, scratch or whatever.. and you tear it out of your spiral notebook or from the red sticky tape that holds the pad paper together.. you then crumple it till you feel like every font you've written becomes unreadable - then you throw it somewhere, some place that no one would ever notice what you have written in that piece of parchment.
In that paper, you wrote down your deepest thoughts and your inner most emotions. Doodle or letters, poetry or just random notes..but all written from the innermost recession of your brain and your heart combined.
Unconsciously you crush it with your hands, tear and shred that piece of paper away even if what you have blotted down was that one thing you wanted to let the whole world know and just shout out loud so it would no longer bother you from inside - yet your too scared to even utter those words.
This is exactly what I want to do, write down my secret and my dream, the brainchild of my expectations, hallucinations and imaginary... and crumple them pretending it doesn't and shouldn't exist. eventually throwing them away for anyone not to bother read.
But as I throw that paper away, a part of my soul and heart comes with it. Like I feel myself left with tiny bits of leftover torn paper parts from the red sticky tape or that spiral wire of my notebook from where i tore the paper where i wrote those words that I couldn't tell the whole world of.
Last weekend would be one of my most unforgettable this year, why? Cause my brother went M.I.A - missing in action. I was in my celebratory mood because of Faith's 21st birthday but people at home were really worried about where my brother is. We spent days going around town to find people who knew people who knew my brother. Thing is with my brother, he has random friends, friends that we don't know so it was quite hard to look for him at a place where he was supposed to be at. At the day when we were suppose to check for funeral homes to see if someone with the description of my brother was bought in, he then showed up. I was at the beach that time, I just wanted to get away from all the worrying and the thinking about what the f*ck did my brother just disappeared and if he was okey. He is now okey and alive but grounded.
Here is my birthday gift for Faith. It was a struggle in burning this video in a CD, Thank God for YouTube.
“Irene Sharie Francisco is going to be attending a talk and blog about whatever The Explainer will be explaining.” This is currently my Facebook status message before I left home, rushing to UP because again I woke up late from staying up online till 3am.
In celebration of Cebu Press Freedom, Mass Communication and Journalism students were invited in a symposium titled Reaching Out to Future Journalists: Challenges of New Media; this event was sponsored by Smart Communication and Sun Star. Invited guest speaker is Manuel "Manolo" L. Quezon III aka The Explainer; joined by Jesus B. Garcia Jr, Nini Cabero and Max Limpag of Sun.Star Publishing Inc. as panelists. Like all other journalists and media outlets, The explainer has also conquered and made a name in the world wide web through his blog and other social networking accounts aside from being a columnist and commentator.
This isn’t the first that I attended a talk that tackled about the role and challenges of new technology and the emerging new forms of media to present and future journalists, yet attending such forums always remind me of how important it is to effectively work hand in hand with technology while maintaining and practicing ethical journalism.
With the emergence of citizen journalism, it is the journalists’ role to provide integrity and serve as gatekeepers to make sure sources are checked and that the information served is reliable and truthful. Verifying the sources and eliminating which is fictitious is a skill that genuine journalists develop through time and experience; something that a blogger, no matter how well opinionated, educated or creative will probably never or seldom achieve.
The panel provided the history, the future and current issues surrounding this new form of media, particularly it's manifestation on the young and forthcoming journalists, in a nutshell. The Explainer, like what he always does in his show with the same title, showed and elaborated the topic through the use of pictures and was even kind enough to give out tips and tricks in so not to be tangled in the high speed and ever changing world wide web.
One of the highlights of the speakers was the power of the Internet and mobile technology to spread, manipulate, alter and create "reality"; thus becoming a double edge sword to those who rarely have time to verify what they read, hear or see online.
In accordance to the subject and theme, the event was not only graced by the men and women of media or students that were taking related disciplines of communication or journalism, but bloggers were also invited in the said event. Through the help of Smart Communication's newest wireless broadband technology, Smart Bro, these bloggers were asked to buzz the blogosphere about the ongoing activity held at the UP Cebu campus. After which were asked to show the audience their personal or public blog sites. I was one of those bloggers that were invited to write about the event and felt proud in showing off this humble online space of mine.
By the way, I was joined by my three other classmates in Mass communication and they all agreed that they were able to pick up several points on how to be an efficient and effective journalists, its importance compared to just throwing off their two cents worth without proper research or knowledge. Leemark even added " In connection to that, digital world doesn’t affect journalists. It opens the will of the non-journalist to express their views and feelings. Everyone can be a journalist indeed we must be everywhere." In here he agrees with one of the guest speakers that even though technology has made the work of media men easier and faster, technology doesn't create or build up the story nor the news; it's a mere vehicle to make the news reach a broader audience, it is still the journalists' brain that keeps people constantly interested, entertained and informed.
KISS. Keep it short and simple. Mr. Quezon's tip in order to keep the readers interested. So I'm ending it here. In total, it was another thought provoking and enriching symposium. I was never a fan of Mr. Quezon's ANC TV show, nor do I even stop and read his column in the daily but I was simply fascinated by how he was able to deliver such complex topic with simplicity - I was awed and starstucked at the same time. (He did smile and paid attention while I was presenting my blog to the audience, or maybe so I thought, I do wish though) LOL.
P.S. I wish I had pictures to post with this entry but as of 5pm this afternoon, no pictures of the event proliferated online, I was so spaced out, I forgot to bring my camera. So here is a picture I grabbed from google. And if you do want to check Mr. Quezon's blog just click me!
It was some week. Like I was drugged or something close to that. It was seven and a half days of nothing but tasting what it was like to be in the realm of what they say was heaven, hell and whatever it was in the middle. It was those nights that turned into early morning bliss, most of them I was intoxicated. although until now I can still feel and hear my heart, like a strong beating of jumbo china drums. There were nights when I couldn't sleep until breaking dawn and by the time I woke up, I would turn on my TV, half asleep waiting for a song to play. That specific song that had a cup of coffee, it's that song that reminded me of ...
It was some week. I always thought that you were good looking. I specifically liked the smile, the best was the one you flashed when I first noticed your existence. Then it was in that cool thursday afternoon, among a swarm of estranged and strangers when I first noticed how really a looker you are. It was also on the same day when I realized Alanis Morisette's lyric " I met the man of my dreams and meeting his beautiful wife. Well isn't it Ironic?" can be real and mortalize.
It was some week. So, there maybe things that you would feel, sense and figure out that you might not really fully understand, unless I say it directly. I was never good in hiding my feelings from anybody but I was better with hiding the truth behind those feelings from everyone.
It was some week. I was struggling. Once again, I placed my heart in my sleeves, which I shouldn't have done in the first place. It was unconscious. I was drugged or so I thought I was or wished I was; by that laugh, by that look, by that feeling of temporary madness. Which I'm pretty sure for you was nothing but just temporary and nothing close to that kind of madness I am talking about.
But it was some week. It was that week when I felt like I was never gonna be the same person that I was that monday; it was tuesday by the way when I finally got the chance to mingle with that person who I, at one point, embarrassed myself by anonymously sms-ing out of the blue.
It was some week When you called me names, although some hurt, I knew or maybe I hoped that you never really meant them. I could never call you names and even if you say I did, it wasn't real nor did you deserve it. It was on that same week when I was working on something that was extremely important to me. There were no emails, no friend requests... then I sadly came upon the realization what was important to me was nothing close to importance for you.
It was a good seven and a half I was most of the time intoxicated and often times short of breath. it was some week, indeed a good week.
Thank you. For those who greeted me on facebook, multiply, friendster and through SMS. I had the simplest birthday this year - no parties, nothing extravagant but it felt soo much meaningful than last year. I did charity this year and prepared dinner with for my family. A few of my friends surprised me for my birthday and gave me a very lovely chocolate cake (that I appreciate soo much). I also had a on the spot spur of the moment bonding with my highschool barkada and a send off party at the same time for Pia. I met with my family for dinner at Parkmall and Tita Vicky gave me a box of KrispyKremes (oh how I just love their cookies and cream variant), my brother and my dad ate most of the donuts, I wasn't in my sweet-tooth mood that time. While waiting for dinner, I spent the afternoon with Swanie. We had Calda and did some karaoke. We sang Bohemian Rhapsody to our heart's content and tantan was in her Mariah Carey self. I just love spending time with Swanie!
I was looking forward to watch kimmydora with Dianne but she had to cancel on the last minute to attend to some errands and with her studies. I'm drinking with Faith in awhile.
I don't really know what to blog, it was a long weekend and my head ached cause I was just lying in bed the whole two days watching repeats of The Apprentice Season 1 and the usual staples on TV. Last friday, I went home though at 6am, Pia was drunk, thats a first! =)
I am loving the new Silent Sanctuary Video - I am in love with the story rather than the music but what the heck, makes me wanna vote for it to stay on MYX for the next few weeks, last I checked its at number 6... I came to like Hale's Bahay Kubo too.
Hours from now I'll be turning twenty and three - I'm hoping this year would be better than the last few "stressful" yet life enriching years. I'm doing charity this year instead of the usual going out and drinking spree with friends. I'm doing charity and family.
Tonight, I'm meeting with Faith and Steph... To salubong my day and for Steph's sound off - will this be her last send off? It's bittersweet, I know she doesn't want to leave but we have to do what we have to do.
It's midterms tomorrow, I'm not even sure if I'll attend to my stat class, I haven't been going to class for almost a month now... I'm leaning towards dropping from the subject. Urgh. Promise, my last. Well... that is if my English hasn't dropped my yet. Oppss.
So I'm curious, what gonna be my college barkada's plan for my birthday surprise? We started doing it this year and this is gonna stay as a tradition (I hope so). I'm not a fan of surprises but the thought of them planning is something for me is so heartwarming. I can't wait to see em again, it's always fun whenever they are around. I miss riva more, we have been texting these past few days and review has been tough for her, I hope she pulls through.
I miss swanie. I miss my highschoolbarkada - the heartbreakers. I hope to see them before Pia leaves for Bataan again.
To those who have been texting me last week, guys sorry if I didn't reply to your text messages, my phones got busted and I couldn't read the text messages sent to me last week. I'm okey now, thanks to swanie for lending me her extra phone. See, this is the reason why I'm not buying or do I own, expensive phones, they break easily and having them fixed can be pricey! The phone expensive phone that I want is a sidekick, too bad they don't offer sidekick here.
I'm on my way to Alejandro's tonight, I'm dropping off the books that I promised to donate for their anniversary charity work this year, before I head over at Faith's place. I'm doing it on the 11th hour, it's so typical me. haha
OUTDATED. So I am obliged to update this little blog of mine. I'm listening to daydream cycle, this local group doing triphop, the last time I checked they were all men in the band, now they have a girl on vox. Vox, by the way, is vocals shortened, I got this from browsing the site of my as-of-the-moment man candy. I wish I could show you his picture but I can't cause I certainly don't want to cause more brouhahas but seriously he is HOTT there are only three things that bothers me about him... he is shorter than me, he is quite of a suplado and that he is into the reggae/rasta thing.
Drown me with goddam painkillers!!! I'm nursing a very bad toothache and I hope this goes away with resulting me to visit my dentist. But I do need some cleaning...
I'm cleaning my room right before I hit the sack, I realized that I need to change some sheets and sweep my floor cause I'm starting to see ants crawling around my bed. Urgh..
One more week to go and It's gonna be my twenty third birthday. I don't have plans, maybe I'm treating my friends out to dinner but I seriously want a vacation somewhere far without having to go back to the city. I missed school yesterday and today, I don't feel like going to school. Good luck for my midterms.
Which reminds me, I have to ask my tita moolah to buy me new rubber shoes. I can't wait, it's volleyball season once again!
My friend Dianne is back at the gym and she's forcing me to join her and even volunteered to pay for the first month but I feel like I'm not ready yet nor disciplined enough to go back to the gym. We placed a wager on who gets to loose more in a month, if I win, she lessens her smoking if she wins, I'd have to continue going to the gym. I haven't decided yet if I'd go through the bet.
I'm currently loving Lady Gaga's songs, Beautiful Dirty Rich, The Fame and Paparazzi. I feel that the song Paparazzi resembles how I pursue the guys that I like. "Promise I'll be kind, but I won't stop until the boy is mine." "I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until your mine, Papa Paparazzi" I'm sure my friends would agree! hehe
If I had an alter ego, I would be Lady Gaga.
I had fun over the weekend Acquainted with new friends, the Amparito Schoolars of USJR and working with the school's arts and cultural director, Mrs. Mila Espina. I've seen Mrs. Espina on the newspaper but I didn't realize how creative, inspiring and influential she is in the local media scene. We had to do a last minute change of performance for the CAMMA awards last Sunday since there was slight mis-communication between the choreographer and the school administration. It was one of the craziest 3 days of my life in Benedicto but it was a lot of fun, the learning and the experience that I got from activity was enriching. I wish I had the chance to remember their names, they were all calling me Ms. Irene, as if I was a teacher and they asked me to transfer to USJR but I guess I'll have to stay at Benedicto till I figure out the importance of getting my butt in every class. The CAMMA student-director was a cutie but I forgot his name. Lmao.
Over the weekend, we celebrated Sai's surprise birthday party at MB's Tavern. The dinner was so-so, I had a lot of fun when we stayed at Em's place before going home. I'm the next birthday celebrant in line, wonder what kind of surprise will they prepare for me? haha.
There's really nothing much that I want to ask for my birthday, only a DVD copy of old Vilma Santos' movies, especially the movies Alias Baby China and Burlesk Queen. I am a Sharonian and Vilmanian at heart. LoL.
I have so much to blog about but the pain is making me irritable plus the weather isn't helping at all.
Lets just catch up some other time. Toodles.
By the way, happy birthday to Stephanie Tio and Sarah Macabantog. I love you girlfriends!
I wanna leave you guys with a music video of Drip's Song number 9. I heart em.
(M)PULSE Mobile bar. Hassle free party? go (M)PULSE! If you want to know more about (M)PULSE click on the banner on top! If you are so outdated on party terms (like me), a mobile bar is like a catering service, instead of food, they serve alcoholic drinks! Too bad for cebuanos, (M)Pulse operates in manila but one of the owners Cym is a cebuano! They offer open bar packages that are affordable and cocktails that have creative names.(like their famous Fudge You, Angel Kisses, Lycheetini and more) Some of the mix were made by Cym and soon will be introducing game shots (is that what you call em cym? hehe). If you don't know what "game shots" are, I think these are games that you play and drinking a shot is part of the consequence if you lose. So okey, I suck at this. haha Pictures and more info are available in the site. Make sure to book ahead of time as they are almost full on the weekends. Oh oh oh, plus I heard they have cute bartenders! They take care of the drinks, all you need to do is have some good and clean *wink* fun!
Photos are for the Benedicto College FAMES organization's AVP for this year's college acquaintance party slash induction of officers. I'm done with the AVP, it took me 16 hours to create the audio-visual presentation; I hope all my efforts are worth it by making our department and the organization's members proud.
Thank you for my friends, Armand, Nikki and Susan for helping me out with the photoshoot. Thank you for those who showed up during the shoot and our college dean for your all our support.
I woke up with the sound of the door opening and the voice of my mom talking on her mobile phone as I followed her to her room to use the C.R., she told me the news that Corazon Aquino is dead. I thought it was a dream, I am always stunned with news about death, when I returned back to my bed I then took a moment of silence and prayed for her soul. A few minutes after, my dad called and asked me where my brother was, his phone cannot be reached and he didn't notify anyone that he wouldn't be sleeping at either my dad our the mabolo house. It was an odd morning today, slightly melancholic or I don't know....
2009 is the year when a lot of great people have passed away and I always told everyone that I hope Tita Cory wouldn't pass away this year, I still think that the people of the Philippines need her for moral and spiritual guidance especially in this phase that were going through (the upcoming elections, the birth of conass etc.). But I guess it was about time and with all the things that she has done for her countrymen and the inspiration she has given to many people around the world, I would say that she's one of the very few blessed individuals who has lived a life of righteousness to the fullest. Let her soul rest in peace.
It a Saturday and I'm home, trying to finish the papers for our application for accreditation. I missed the Sarah G and Up Dharma Down concert last night but it was alright, I didn't feel like going out after a hearty spur of the moment dinner with Pia at Don Juan. (By the way, I will be doing a Resto Rave about Don Juan whenever I have the time and my Mamma Maria pizza experience).
I'm quite frustrated cause I couldn't find the USB cable for my mobile phone to my computer. I think I lost or misplaced it somewhere with my coin purse that has my flash drive in it. I'm still not giving up, if my Tuesday I couldn't find it, I'll have to buy a new one.
Speaking off purchases, I did my groceries last friday as I have noticed that there were no food in the fridge. Doing the groceries is a love-hate thing. Why? Cause I just love going through the aisles and looking for what stuff to buy, trying to remember the essentials and stopping the urge to purchase those that I don't really need. I ended up buying 2 bags full of junk food and a bag of what I really need. The hate part? It's burning my money!!!! Urgh....
Yes, my friends stephanie will hate me once she sees all the junk food that I have stored in my room. Sometimes it can be too lazy to cook real food, so I end up just munching on junk.
It's august, I do remember telling myself to put on my GOAL SETTING CAP. I don't really want to check the weighing scale cause I'm afraid to see that I've actually gained the weight that I lost a few months ago. Then again, this time I will have to be serious in pursuing the promises that I told myself that I would do once August comes. So starting monday, no more unnecessary absences from school and no more slacking off. I need to be serious with this people!
Anyway, I have to leave now. I need some shut eye cause I have an appointment tomorrow with other CAMS member, I think were guesting on the local game show, Kapamilya Winner Ka. I seriously don't know what to expect for tomorrow if I'll be playing or just be watching others play but its gonna be something new for me.
Toodles everyone. TYVM.
Parting Shots:
Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow. I am the diamond glint on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the gentle autumn rain. When you wake in the morning hush, I am the swift, uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circling flight. I am the soft starlight at night. Do not stand at my grave and weep. I am not there, I do not sleep. Do not stand at my grave and cry. I am not there, I did not die!
Here is something artsy that I would like to share to you guys. It's the poem made by Candy, the lead role of the INDIE Australian Movie Candy, played by Abbie Cornish and the Late Heath Ledger. The plot revolved around an intense relationship that was often tested by addiction, sex, violence and love. I suggest to go ahead and download the movie.
I've noticed, hole in the wall pizza parlors have mushroomed around the city. I still have to try Venezia (in Banawa) and Mama Maria's (near asilo)... I've heard that these pizza places serve good pizza with lotsa toppings. Mama Maria tries to outdo Calda Pizza by serving pizzas up to 60 inches in diameter. HOOOLLLAAA,thats one huge pizza! When I checked out istorya.net, I then found out new pizza places that others would also recommend, like this pizza place that is near sacred heart for girls and a pizza parlor accross Goodyear Maguikay. I'm quite excited to do Resto Raves about these whole in the wall restaurants and see which places really do serve heavenly tasting pizzas. So if you guys know the owners of the pizza places that I've mentioned, ask them to send me some samples of their best sellers!
webcam whoring before saying goodnight an yes, I did get a haircut. hehe
It's 2:23 am, I'm checking out my online accounts that I still care about and blogging about how random but fun this day turned out to be. I just finished encoding our organization constitution and by-laws which I created last night. It was so weird that I had the energy to finish drafting our by-laws til 3 in the morning, it must be the 3 coke saktos that I drank for my late tuna and linatang na baboy dinner.
Visiting ate Joy joy and Gi-ai's baby girl shantelle.
I'm sleeping over at tio's tonight, I have a feeling that I won't show up on my 9AM STAT Class tomorrow. YIKES! I would absent for the entire week if that is the case. I promised myself of no more unnecessary absences starting August and I'm quite serious about it cause I seriously don't like to see another INC or Dropped or worse 5 in my TOR. The organization is taking a lot of my time lately, especially when I am solely responsible in building it from scratch and making it work and hopefully last for a the years to come. After visiting baby shantelle at the hospital, we were suppose to try the newest pizzeria to hit town. Mama Maria's Pizzeria was the name of the place, i think. They're currently offering affordable pizza and marketing their pizza place as the pizzeria that serves the largest pizza in the country. My latest craving is pizza, specifically the ETNA/BOLOGNESE/HAWAIIAN pizza of CALDA. I can prolly finish one family size by myself, as long as it is served hot. The mozzarella is so sumptuous and heavenly! But I heard Mama Maria is if not as good, better than Calda.... that I can only tell when I can get a grab of Mama Maria's Pizza. Anyone from the company who would like to send me one to test?! We ended up going home at tio's place cause her parents were preparing one of her few send-off dinner. It's always fun to have dinner with Steph's family, I wish I could be in the same loving family.
check out my ultra pink nailpolish from fabnails/nail bar. Finally, I had time to get some feet and hand lovin'
I seriously need to hit the sack. I'll blog more whenever I've got more time.
Sorry everyone if I'm not updating this blog of mine, school and procrastination attacks has been taking a lot of my time lately. It's almost August and I really wish I would be able to go through my plans of A) traveling to somewhere out of cebu B) hitting back to the gym of controlling my food intake C) stop canceling out on my morning *ehem* 9 am classes D) completely erasing someone's number E) save for the rainy days. Easy but tough.. we will see. I have to set out my goals again, I kinda forgot I had one after my "depression days" when I was not allowed to finish college in Manila.
This quick blog and checking my PEX account and I'm off to watch Adik Sa' yo. I am sooo craving for Calda's Etna/Hawaiian Pizza in family size. Should I get a delivery? Urgh.. so much for saving money for the rainy days.
I'm gonna do tons of Resto Raves - Moon Cafe Ayala and Pizza Roma Ayala. Pictures from our Org photoshoot from last saturday. Updates about random things.
I was suppose to get a pedicure while waiting for Stephanie's text for later but I decided to eat MangInasal, shop for red lipstick, the Penshoppebella cologne and a new brush.Bella (in pink) smells like ESCADA - fruity and summerish.
Afterwards, I went straight to the an internet cafe to kill time, which is what I'm doing right now. I went a bit emotional while doing the entry about tio; imagine me crying inside the cafe, I can be such a loser sometimes.
Earlier today, I made our AVP for the CAMS event this afternoon. I was really tired last night that I decided to skip the making of the AVP first thing in the morning. I used Cyberlink Power Director 7 and my ever dependable Windows Movie Maker in creating the AVP. The Power Director was a pretty good program but I was still struggling with how to create an AVP using the program cause it was more complex than the movie maker. I was late for almost an hour and a half for the meeting, I was cramming and rushing to finish the video. It was not a help that I left my skirt at our mabolo house. But I made it on time, just right before the guest speaker ended his inspirational speech. All in all it was good, I had to put a show to make our "presentation" a bit lively. School that attended had more than 10 delegates, we were only four, I wanted the presentation to have a recall, so the audience would know Benedicto College does exist.
We didn't finish the whole program since it was past five and we had other plans, here is a video of us leaving the USJR campus where the event was held.
I'm quite excited to be part of CAMS, my highschoolbatchmate and my college schoolmate were responsible in creating the group.
Lets dance in style, lets dance for a while Heaven can wait were only watching the skies Hoping for the best but expecting the worst Are you going to drop the bomb or not?
Let us die young or let us live forever We dont have the power but we never say never Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip The musics for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is won Turn our golden faces into the sun Praising our leaders were getting in tune The musics played by the madmen
Forever young, I want to be forever young Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever
Some are like water, some are like the heat Some are a melody and some are the beat Sooner or later they all will be gone Why dont they stay young
Its so hard to get old without a cause I dont want to perish like a fading horse Youth is like diamonds in the sun And dimonds are forever
So many adventures couldnt happen today So many songs we forgot to play So many dreams are swinging out of the blue We let them come true
I hate goodbyes and I told you never to text me 2 days before you're leaving but you texted be and now I can't help but be emotional about you leaving. Two years is long, too long for someone who I've been with through the roughest time in my life. You were the first to visit me when I told you, I killed myself just the other night, you don't have any idea how that meant to me. I wish I could have been a better friend, I hope I was good enough love. So tonight, I'm putting my brave mask on, I hate to cry infront of you, I've cried infront of you countless times already, I want you to leave with a memory of me smiling. I love you forever tiobebs, I don't think things will ever be the same without you around.
P.S. Your so mean, I was suppose to be the one leaving not you.
According to Facebook, it's his birthday today. Happy Birthday. Last year, I emailed him the lyrics of the song Million Miles away and yesterday without any apparent reason, I sang my hearts out to Katy Perry's Thinking of You at POD5. I found myself sad after a really happy night with Belle and Riva last night, the alcohol and nausea made it worse, I felt really awful but thank god I didn't cry. While watching Karen explaining how she really loves Ruben when she was bidding Ruben's family goodbye, I suddenly cried, cause I exactly know how it felt to really like someone and do almost everything for that person just so that he would notice you, to the point of embarrassing yourself and being labeled annoying, obsessed and a freaky stalker. I hope beyond what he thinks or what his friends think of me, he would give me that opportunity of knowing who I really am. Is this love? I don't know, what I only know is that I wouldn't want to go through what I've gone through to get your attention so I'm sticking to telling myself that I am in love with you because it would be easier that way then to go through it all over again with another person.
Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one I still got the seed
You said move on Where do I go I guess second best Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer In the middle of winter Like a hard candy With a surprise center How do I get better Once I've had the best You said there's Tons of fish in the water So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips I taste your mouth He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into...
You're the best And yes I do regret How I could let myself Let you go Now the lesson's learned I touched it I was burned Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you Thinking of you What you would do if You were the one Who was spending the night Oh I wish that I Was looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes Looking into your eyes Oh won't you walk through And bust in the door And take me away Oh no more mistakes
Why I named this entry such? Only Me, Steph and Shane knows. *enter my devilish smile* After 10000 million years, the three of us sat down and exchanged (well it was mostly shane who did the sharing) stories and updates of our and other people's lives. Imagine 5 hours of just talking, laughing and recalling about what happened in the past that affected the present. We used to do this every weekend or every chance we get but never appreciated those moments, until one day we found ourselves just hanging out with different people, still exchanging stories but not with much thrill and emotions like how we do it. One person was missing but I couldn't thank the Lord that that time in my life was over and that were both out of our lives. I'm speaking for myself. No alcohol and going home early was the agenda that day. Shane had work by 7 and I had to leave because I wanted to convince myself that I was a good student. It was payday for Shane so she did most of the paying.
Shane | Steph | Iryn
We met at Kopi Rotti at the Gallery in Mabolo. Koppi Rotti had a different kind of menu, although I've seen it featured several times on TV when I went to get myself a drink, I was seriously at lost of what to order. There were no blended fraps, just like what I usually order at any coffee place, so I decided to get their house blended lemon tea. It was so-so, I could taste the freshness of the lemon, it wasn't too sweet nor too sour, just right but It wasn't the drink that would really remember nor order next time. Shane had their coffee with jelly, she said that was their best seller and Steph, I think got their cold chocolate. Kopi Rotti's price is very reasonable, I was in shock that their drinks were below a hundred bucks; good for those people who want to chill over a cup of something but is in a budget. We met on the afternoon when the heat from noon started to cool down, it was a perfect time to relax and unwind.
Steph with her signature pose. Why the BIG SMILE my friend? LMAO.
A papparazzi shot of me.
Shane bellot and that signature smile. Nathan has the same smile too.
This was suppose to be a picture of us three but I was too lazy to move from where I was sitting.
At around 4 we left Koppi Rotti to have early dinner. Shane pointed us to this hole in the wall pochero place at the back of Sarossa Hotel. They serve mouth watering pochero and other viands during lunch but their pochero is staple in their menu. How much for a serving of hot pochero soup with succulent meat? ONLY 40 PESOS. Seriously?! Seriously!!!!! If available, they can provide you good Ginamos for free. They're open for lunch and dinner and close by 9:00 PM; if the pochero place were open during the wee hours in the morning, it could be a good place to head to after a night of inuman with friends.
Pochero is L-O-V-E
Another paparazzi shot of me and steph; Steph looking at me while I'm enjoying eating their left over pochero meat.
We strolled around Ayala, Shane got Gelatissimo and by 7:30 we all said our goodbyes and separated ways.
Brain freeze?
It been awhile since I had a picture with her.
Thank you bellot for the treat, for introducing me to the pochero place and for the pictures.
Check out my photo blog from Riva's surprise birthday get together last Saturday.
Pick up point: StarmartBanilad. Call time was at 3:00pm but due to heavy downpour and the filipino time, we were about an hour late to pick the birthday girl up.
Meanwhile, Kring-kring and Bibi were at City Garden Coffee setting up the place.Photo: Bolognese-Calda Pizza (Super size), Coke/Zero, sprite and Goldilocks Chocolate roll cake. Leading the birthday girl towards the surprise. She didn't have any idea where were at and that I was there.
The posse posed for the camera. (Thanks to the boys for being such lovely cameramen) On the third picture, we were suppose to do a headache pose but look at what emem did. Blahhhh... haha
The girls having fun taking photos of themselves; I on the other hand was complaining of mosquito bites while slowly eating the mallows out of the cake. hehe
What was expected to end early turned out to be a night out till 11:00 pm. We had random conversations from memories from college, facebook updates to how-well-do-you-know-your-boyfriend Q&A portions.Clark and Mercy
Bebe and Kring-kring
Andrew and Riva
Dan and EmemOh saibakitkanakasimangot? Miss mo nabasi Jaycee mo?
There were side trips like our my photo drama with elena that I would title: Baby Angel slash Angas and Cruelladeville. Which turned out to be a make up 101 demo from whatever I learned from different Youtube make up tutorial videos.
We all decided to stop by Siloganni Gian to fill out stomachs before heading home. It was a good and fun day, chilling and exchanging laughs with my college friends. I really miss hanging out with them during breaks. Even if those 2 years of nursing life was unsatisfactory, these were the people who made it really memorable. I heart you friends. Wish that banban was around to join us. We miss you banban.
